Wacky Wednesday #1

This blog is my way to remember and re remember important events of my life. What all happened the entire week. My feelings towards those things. This post might be really big sometimes and not so big sometimes depending on my mood obviously =)

So last week went in a blur. The best thing that happened was TVD!!! I was in a mode where I couldn't think about anything else than TVD in 2 days I watched season 4 TWENTY THREE episodes and season 5 two episodes. So I'm back on track with my Vampire doze. =) 

It's one of my favorite shows. Obviously after #HIMYM what will I do after the show gets over? ? I love watching shows I know it won't do me any good but while I'm watching it I tend to forget about the competitive horrible world around me.

Other day Transparent value had come for placement. But in the first aptitude round only I got out. But never mind I came to know what all things I have to study and improve my knowledge. That was more important than anything else.

And also India Forex had come but because of my lethargic nature I couldn't sit for it. And plus I had scholarship work to do.

The other things

Recently I have been wondering about something. When we are doing something what all other something could we have done while we were doing something.

Huh.??. Is it confusing ??

What I mean to say is. Like when I'm sleeping in the afternoon, I'm clearly wasting my time. I could have done so many things while I was wasting my time. I am that sort of a person who will sleep for no reason, you know what I'm saying, when I'm bored, nothing exciting to do, don't want to study etc etc...

There must be a name for people like me..

what could it be..

I have to find it out...

huh after I take a nap I'll. .. hehehehe...

Anyways so if any-day from now I ever felt like sleeping I'll fight that urge and burn 150 calories or more that's got to keep sleep at bay. Or else I can read novels.  I love them and everybody knows that.

All that time I have wasted watching stupid televisions shows. I
Could have studied something and maybe scored more marks in 10th grade. Not that it matters now!!!. And I still waste my time watching television. The only difference is back in old days I used to watch saas bahu shows and now it's annoying reality shows.

Why are we Indians so obsessed with television.???

Or is it same with the majority of the world's population? ??

Well I can read newspaper / articles and update myself on current happenings. Now its easier said then done. But that's what sort of life I want to live. So no more TV for me. =) yeah!! Like that's ever going to happen. . So sensible watching. Something that's fun and I get to chill out after my hectic / exhaustive day. Something where I can learn something.

All those times in school and college that I have wasted daydreaming while boring lecture where going on. I could have gone MOOC where lectures are way more interesting and subjects of my choices. Now there is nothing that I could really do at these times other than daydream. Now what do you expect me to do read novels while teacher is blabbing on and on and on... on something something something which no one understand.

How am I going to concentrate on my novels. ??? Can't bunk lecture. Attendance is very important in my Indian education system. So the only option is playing games. In school days it was raja rani chor police. Or the evergreen x and o game. Pen fight. And many more which I have loved playing but can't remember the names. Or simply being gossip girl.

And now in college as we all have become technically advance we love playing games, checking mails, twitter, Facebook etc etc etc. . Or now also simply being gossip girl. But I know for fact that people used to connect way more in playing physical games in school than virtual games in college. Come on how many of you college going knows the 5th person sitting beside you??

Now the fact is I have wasted a huge chunk of my life in a way that lead me to my destruction. Now clearly I have not gained anything from my  watching television shows, sleeping in afternoon and boring lecture. So I'm stopping this chakravyuh of doing something destructive while I can do something that is constructive right this moment.

I have no regrets though. I have loved doing those things back then. But now time has changed. I don't love and clearly not enjoy doing them anymore. Clearly this annoying things have to fall apart to make way for better things in my life. Because now even the thought of me wasting time makes me MAD. It's very frustrating. If you know what I mean.

My new mantra is whenever I'm doing something I'll always think what other something I can do. =)

Back to square one

Last whole week was really amazing. I was seeing myself moving forward, leaving all the annoying habits behind. But this week I feel like I'm a snake my thoughts and habits are like the snake's skin. My new approach to life is my new skin which is coming. I mean my thoughts runs like in a speed of lightning to me. I want to adapt all new habits all at ones. But at the same time, old skin is not leaving me. It's coming off at a speed of snail. And I just can't wait that long anymore. I don't have any patience left in me.

I want myself to have a habit of getting up early. Going for morning workout. To be punctual. Get the perfect body like Hillary Duff or Jennifer Aniston. I'm always getting sick and I know somewhere its liked to my hygiene factor. So I want to improve that. I want to have a good fashion sense like Aks. But all that will require money. I want to earn lots of money for that I need a job which will pay my bills and I want to love and enjoy my job. Come on I don't want to be like those people who just behave like zombies with their jobs.

I'm 23 now and going to be 24 in just 4 months time. I don't want to enter 24 with such lousy habits. I want to be a better person by then. There is so much to do and very little time left. I can't waist a single second anymore.

Why is it so hard for me to get into the process of change. I can give good advise to others but why can't I myself do it? Come on the other night when Dan was really upset with her problems why was I being so distance and telling her rudely to do this and do that. Its but obvious that I wouldn't like it if people talk to me that way. But now that I realized I have never gone to anybody and pour my heart out.

Is it a good thing or a bad thing? ?

 Should I be proud of myself or wonder is this creating problems for me. 

I guess it is. I can't talk properly to people. I'm always with me and myself and never let anyone enter my world. And maybe that is one of the reason I don't have a boyfriend. Well I will figure it out if not sooner than obviously later.

And now let me get ready and complete my TO DO LIST will catch you later on.... bye for now.

I just made plans to meet with Aks. I don't know why I feel she is just meeting me for the sake of it. As I was the one coordinating it since past few days. I know for the fact that she knows I couldn't gel along with her other hep friends. But that's true also. I'm not that sort of party person. I don't like to drink much. Now that's for a fact. But party stuff I can't say for sure as I have not done it before. Have to experience it. Plus I have to go to meet her she is not coming here. But now I will give her this one as there are not many places in my area and she had come once and I decide to sleep rather than meet her. Sleep I can go on and on in this topic. But that's the story for some other day.

I want to make pages in this blog
★ my wishlist
★ my sleeping schedule
★ my exercise page
★ my studies page
★ my to do list page.

I know I'm really crazy and pathetic but if it helps me to be a better person then I don't really care about it. And plus it's helping me not forget anymore days in my life. Only if I knew about this before but never mind its always late then never.

I can keep writing but I'll not. Have to get ready now :)

Okay right now I'm in auto and one thing I have learned about myself is I just hate them.  Hate them to the core. And can't write in auto as its moving so disturbingly- ridiculously- zigzag. 

Reached home. Well my target money was 150/- but it was less then that so I'm not that pissed with myself. But still upset about the money it cost me for this outing. Papa was sitting outside with one uncle and talking. 

Aks told me quite a happening story of her life. I liked it as we discussed some topic which we never touched before. Starbucks experience was really nice. I liked the caramel frappe. And the ambience. I can go on and on about this but I won't. Maybe some other time. 

And now I know how my rest of the night will proceed. 

1. Having Dinner

2. Watching bigg boss

3. Updating my resume

4. Marking text book for photocopy. 

That's it for today. 

I hope I get closer to my dream guy now than I was yesterday. 

Other than being pissed off at auto my day was really nice. I love it and hate it when I don't go to college. Depending on my mood =)

9th October 2013

Preeti. 

Getting Started!!!

I am really lazy to keep a journal in a traditional method. No doubt I love the traditional method way more than the modern one. I love the touch of my dairy, the way paper smells when its new, and just flipping over the pages to read the old entries. The excitement of choosing a brand new journal for every year. I still do that, though I am not able to be consistent with writing in it. The two problem I have faced with the traditional book and pen method is that I just cant take time out for it. :( I want a privacy which is not possible as I don't have my own room. (Well its just an excuse, Okay!! ) My family is really considerate. They do give me my space. But I just cant write when there are people around me. I feel very Naked. Exposed. Disturbed. And there is always a scary though that they might read it. Thought I know they wont. But still. And this always makes me not write in my journal regularly. So I decided to move to the modern method now with all this world moving technologically ahead and all drama. Over here I can write my journal when there is nothing exciting going on in FB or TWITTER and plus no one comes to know my password so obviously they cant read it. (And I really don't care what you unknown crazy stalker thinks about me.)

Okay lets move on with the important occurrence of my day. :)

Again I didn't get up in the morning for my morning workout, and I want to make it my habit, how in the world will that be possible??

When will I learn to be punctual. Oh come on today was Angadi sir's presentation and i reached just in time. ( Ena was about to start with the presentation and Eha came after me soo...) Still it doesn't matter to me to be punctual. Why oh WHY GOD ???

I love the goodies which we get during seminars. And getting refreshment after seminar was like an icing on the cake. WOW moment.

Got 4 books from library on Iru and Bhia's card.

So my tonight task is to mark International Business for photocopy. And i'm 90% of a mind not to do it and just go to bed. Its calling me. And ya in my mind ''THINGS'' talk to me.

All in all my day was good. :)

8th October 2013

Preeti :)